Vision

         27 months ago, we started our adoption paperwork process.  We had this relatively easy vision of what it would be: spend a while completing the crazy paper chase, wait a few months…maybe a year…and then travel to get our daughter and bring her home. I had this scripture hanging on my refrigerator:

“I will take my stand at my watchpost

and station myself on the tower,

and look out to see what He will say to me…

And the Lord answered me:

‘Write the vision, make it plain on tablets,

so he may run who reads it.

For still the vision awaits its appointed time;

It hastens to the end—it will not lie.

If it seems slow, wait for it;

It will surely come…”

Habakkuk 2:1-4

         Our vision, at least regarding our adoption, has most definitely seemed slow! However, as we come out of the fog of grief, there it is before us still. Both Robert and I still have in our hearts strong desires to add to our family through adoption. All along the way, as we have had some starts and stops, some redirection, we have always stayed united in the desire to adopt and for this I am so grateful. It has never felt like me pulling him along. Or him urging me on. It has always been us together—moving toward the future hope of a daughter brought home.

         We stepped back into the adoption process last week. We love our agency. They have been so sweet to give us time and space to grieve our loss and process our options. We let them know recently we were ready to move forward.

         And, so, the official wait begins again. Although, in reality, it has been a wait of over two years. So much in our life has changed since the day we first said “yes!” to adoption. But the call remains the same.

         And so, we continue to wait for the vision to come to completion and we know indeed that, eventually, it will surely come.